I've always agreed with this quote about food, yet for I-don't-know-how-long, I certainly haven't used it to cure myself. Instead I've been poisoning myself - wilfully, knowingly and maliciously. Why? To combat pain - emotional and physical; and because it's become habit; because I didn't care enough about myself; because I've been "trying" for too long to make changes. "I'll try to get to the gym"; "I'll try to eat better"; "I'll try not to drink on a school night"; "I'll try to do my meditation exercise" or worse "I want to try to...(insert more life-affirming behaviour)". All this trying produced absolutely no health benefits at all and I ended up feeling far worse and spent my days and early morning insomnia time beating myself up for not trying. And then I'd promise myself I'd try again tomorrow. All this pretend concern and 3am planning for my health didn't actually eventuate of course. I was always trying and that made me feel a little bit noble, but I didn't have to stop doing any of the destructive things I was doing while I was so busy trying to.
I was trying so hard and nothing changed, and then I recalled the words of that great 20th century philosopher:
I got so very tired of "trying" because there were no visible results - I had somehow fooled myself into believing that while I was trying I didn't actually have to do anything. So, instead of moaning about my ill-health my body shape, my size and my weight, oh... and that pesky stress and distress I have been feeling for...oh, forever,, I made a decision. With some goals in mind, I began to research. (Starting with the workability of "trying" for the last three years which I quickly concluded was a surefire way to FAIL!)
So, here I am - I have stopped TRYING and actually made a decision to DO instead. (I feel the urge to put another quote in here that we normally associate with a well-known sports clothing brand, but I shall refrain).
I'd had great results with a program my partner and I developed a few years back and had trialled pretty successfully with us and a group of willing clients, and I looked at why that was successful at weight loss - it was balanced, it was sensible, based on a hormonal approach to eating, with psychology (of course) thrown in to the mix. It lost us the weight...but unfortunately didn't stop stressful things happening and I succumbed this last year to my old coping habits (see previous posts for descriptors of those bad kids!). So I revisited our program and also started reading and researching the whole food/Paleo concept as a way to combat my health issues and the (over)weight.
If "Paleo" brings to mind eating raw meat, the Flinstones and cries of "Ugg! I'm going hunting and gathering now; where's my spear?", then stay tuned...
"Yabba-dabba-doo! What animal is that?
*to Yoda thanks
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